{"id":81,"date":"2017-04-09T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2017-04-09T00:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/china.chinaacheru.com\/wp\/2017\/04\/09\/diary-of-a-junkie-all-hell-breaks-loose\/"},"modified":"2017-04-09T00:00:00","modified_gmt":"2017-04-09T00:00:00","slug":"diary-of-a-junkie-all-hell-breaks-loose","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/chinaacheru.com\/staging\/diary-of-a-junkie-all-hell-breaks-loose\/","title":{"rendered":"Diary of a junkie: All hell breaks loose"},"content":{"rendered":"

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By Garnet<\/strong>
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If you keep pushing, someone or something’s gonna push back.
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I couldn’t afford to mess myself up. Even if that was inevitable, not in a club!
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I had not told Stephen I had been battling with typhoid fever for a week.
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I had been down, thought it was malaria and self-medicated a week earlier, but on going to a lab for some tests they told me it was typhoid.
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I was placed on medication and told to rest but I couldn\u2019t resist the chance to get high.
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I snatched Stephen’s car keys and practically ran out of the club. But I wasn’t fast enough…
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\u201cCommon babe, are you OK?\u00a0 Talk to me!\u00a0 Say something!\u201d
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\u201cWhat was wrong with Stephen,\u201d I thought.\u00a0
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I’m screaming my lungs out and he’s asking that I say something.
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I had no idea what was going to happen to me but I felt as though I was about to breathe my last.
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“Where am I?” I think that was me talking because in less than no time Stephen was at my side…
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“Shh! You’ll be fine. Just rest”.
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I wasn’t having that. I’m no sick baby. I’ll rest, but first I want to know where I am.
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So I asked again; “Where am I?”
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My tone must have had an edge because Stephen brought his lips to my forehead and said, “We’re back home.\u00a0 You were out for a while. Just rest. I’m here.\u201d
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With that he laid beside me and placed my head on his chest.
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I\u2019m sure was asleep before my head touched his chest.\u00a0
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I woke up dazed. I raised my head and stared into eyes that held so much worry. I looked past Stephen and noticed that it was still 3am in the morning.\u00a0
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“What happened?”
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He was about to tell me not to bother but the look I gave him stopped him.
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“Well, after you rushed out of the club, I went out after you and met your collapsed form just outside the car.\u00a0 I would ask what happened, but you need to rest.\u201d
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I didn’t feel the tears slide down but felt Stephen’s finger wipe them.
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“I’m sorry I embarrassed you, I started but Stephen wasn’t having a pity party. He said I rest and we’ll talk in the morning.
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But I couldn’t let it slide.\u00a0 I had to clear the air.
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I opened my mouth to say something but the words were not coming forth. I had to struggle between shutting up (which wasn’t an option), trying to talk and fight tears.
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But I wasn’t about to be sent off to bed like a 5yr old…
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“Last week I felt feverish and as usual took some anti- malarial drugs. But after I didn\u2019t feel better after three days I went to a lab for a test and I was told it was typhoid fever.
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\u201cI was supposed to be taking drugs and resting in bed but I didn\u2019t want to pass up the opportunity to hang out with you,\u201d I explained without even looking up at him.
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\u201cI’m very sorry I didn’t tell you before now, and I’m very sorry for any embarrassment I must have caused you.\u201d
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Silence…
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\u201cWhy wasn’t he saying anything?\u201d
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\u00a0All this grammar I just finished speaking didn’t fall on deaf ears now, or did it?
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“You know what, I’ll leave first thing in the morning and you won’t know I ever existed.\u201d
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“What do you mean by leave?\u00a0 Leave to where? Leave me for who?\u201d
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The questions came in quick succession I wasn’t sure he was expecting a reply.
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“You don’t have to put up with me you know?”
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“What are friends for if not for little inconveniences,” I heard him say with a wink.
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At this point, the tears came but I wasn’t letting down my guard…Not tonight.
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“When I saw you that fateful Wednesday, I kinda knew I’d found another sister.
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My sisters are married and not even in the country. You would be my little baby…through thick and thin. I promise to help you past life’s hurdles. It’s not going to be easy, but we’re a team”.\u00a0\u00a0
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OK, why is this guy hell bent on seeing me tear up? I’m not having that I thought and fought within myself to keep the tears back.
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“You really have to sleep now boo. We’re doing mommy’s monthly shopping tomorrow”.
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Hmm! After seeing me in whatever state he met me in, he was still willing to let me see his mom? I leaned in to his embrace, laid my head on his chest, and slept like a baby.
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With Stephen, the surprises never end.
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But now he knows how reckless I can be that I could sacrifice my health just to get high.
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Was he going to let me continue to smoke weed, drink raw codeine and other high end drinks with him or would he put a stop to it?
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Why couldn\u2019t I just stop on my own? Maybe now he knows and says he will take me as a younger sister, he will ensure I stop?
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Then how will it work? Do I hang around him then he sends me away while he is using drugs or would he let me watch him but not let me touch it?
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I needed to rest. Tomorrow may answer all these questions.
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All the art of living lies in the mingling of holding on or letting go.
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